Have you ever read the novel Geek Love?
Some books speak to you. And this one did to me, in a way. The protagonist is an albino dwarf who grew up in a traveling circus/freak show. So there is not a lot in common for me there.
However, it’s been a long time since I read it, (maybe it’s due for a re-read) but one of the themes of the book that I took away is that by being undesirable to men, women will work on other aspects of their personality and work harder to become a success and therefore be successful in all areas of their lives besides love. Otherwise they just fall in love, get married and waste their life.
I remember thinking about this and thinking about the fact that as a fat girl, I often feel undesirable. And although far from being a success, I have had many fantastic life experiences that I might not have had if I had been in a “happy” stable relationship all these years. Because I don’t have the security of feeling completely loved or desired, I tend to try to find other things in life to make up for it. And I have had a great time for the most part.
One of my friends used to tease me that I was going to end up the crazy aunt/cat lady but I would have some amazing stories to tell.
But I think that really, I am just looking for the love. But if I find the love, will I get boring and stupid?
Posted by xdream on July 23, 2009 at 12:30 pm
Love is not lost. It will come around when you stop looking for it.
Posted by wgg on June 11, 2010 at 10:28 am
Hi-
I’m a new reader – just came here because of a google alert for OKCupid. I love your writing!
Not to discount love, but please don’t get boring and stupid!
Hmm…adventure or man? Man or adventure. They are both so appealing. (pick both)
Oh yeah, GEEK LOVE rules! and so do you!
I’ve run out of exclamation points, so ta-ta?
Posted by Gertrude on July 23, 2010 at 8:42 am
Thank you so much!! I am going to try and get back into writing in this damn thing again.