I’ve been fat since puberty. My weight can fluctuate quite a bit, but I’m always fat. I just go from the low end of fat to the higher end. I don’t think I am bad looking, but of course there is a bit of self loathing there; the “If I were a stronger person, I could be thin” line of reasoning that I am sure is probably somewhat common among fat people, but is never really spoken of.
Dating while being fat can be interesting. It seems that most guys are not into fat. My father told me when I was 15 that if I was fat, no one would ever want to marry me. And it’s stuck. It repeats in my head often. To be fair, I haven’t been married. I tend to be the one to break things off, but mostly because I can tell the guys are no longer into me. And in my heart, I blame everything thing that goes wrong with my relationships on me being fat.
Today, not only am I starting this blog, but I am starting a weight loss challenge at my job. I am going to talk about the challenges of trying to make healthy choices in my life, in food and exercise, in addition to the choices I make in men.
Join me… I think it’s going to get interesting.
